In just the 3 months we were together, I was in love. You made me feel special when we were together. But after the first 2 months we started to drift apart. I hardly saw you and we didn't talk. You really didn't make any attempts to try and be with me, so I broke it off.

Even though you treated me wrong and failed to understand me, I still and will always love you. It left me with a hole in my heart.

Just wondering...

Why you never gave me another chance when you said that you cannot afford to lose me. That you'll do anything just to never let me go.

Why you forgot everything about us easily when you set a plan that we need to have things that we will look forward to?

Why you easily found another girl who will replace me when you said that you've seen God's sign in me?

Lastly, why did you break my heart and hurt me when you said to my bestfriend that you'll never let my past happen again....

You left me with so many questions. So many questions.
You make me feel so unpretty.
You make me feel I was slapped right on my face. One that I never see coming.
You make me feel unworthy.

For you, you're still my God's gift.

Is It Over?

Is it over
so I can come out of the corner of my bed
I don't feel alive
I feel so dead.

Did the world stop spinning
so theres no more pain,
u left me no reason
don't you feel ashamed?

When does everything stop growing
so no seasons pass me by,
hours feel like nano seconds
every day I cry.

Does my heart
stop loving
since there's no one to love here,
losing you was my biggest fear.

Does my soul stop searching
since your gone,
without you I swear
I'm not that strong.

Did the merry-go-round
stop going round
since you went away,
there once was a beautiful sun shining on me
but now there's not even one ray.

Is the moon stop shining
because you left me alone,
now I'm scared
and really really cold.

Does the wind stop its howl
since there's no more breath we share,
once you loved me
and really did care.

Does the sun stop,
and its brillant rays vanish because you said I won't try
I want to know the answers
tell me why.

Do the seeing people go blind
because you blinded me
with your words
pretending to love me,

I'm the only one you will need
how come you can't see?
Does everything stop working
just all frozen in time,
I still miss the days
that I could call you mine....

With me you're here my love today,
I dare not ask how long you will stay.
I can barely breathe as you hold me near.
I turn my head so you don't see my tear.
I need your love more than words can say,
I dare not ask how long you will stay.
Can you hear my heart that beats only for you,
if I gave you my soul, with it, what would you do?
Will you love me forever, or just one more day,
I dare not ask how long you will stay.

How badly I was wrong
Today I came to know.
I regret all those acts,
Yet don't know how to show.

By reading you wrong
What a mistake did I do!
I pushed you into the darkness,
I pushed you into the blue.

How do I mend the damage done?
How do I make you feel better?
How can I ask you for pardon?
How do I say, 'I still care.'

You are all the same to me,
Tho' in your eyes I may have fallen.
I can't bear the pain in your eyes,
Without you by my side, life is so barren.

What can I do for you,
If possible, please let me know.
I want to fill you with happiness,
Wanna take care of you, but how do I show.

Wonder why I can't
Why can't I just quit smokin'?
I just can't get rid of this vice,
In this war I just can't win.
I am trying my best
Trying to convince myself.
However hard I try to
It really doesn't help.
I know none would believe me,
All would say I don't try.
But trust me, I really am sincere,
With this dependence, my face is wry.
I resolve and say
This time, I'll quit.
But end up smoking yet again,
So many sticks, this way, I've lit.
So many people have urged me,
So many times I've been told.
Yet I've never listened to any of them,
I wonder why I've been so cold.
What started as mere fun
Has turned into a vice.
I know how bad it is
Yet it never makes me wise.
I know its poison for me,
It often makes me breathless.
This is as bad as smack,
May be worse, but I don't care, nevertheless.
Its not that I don't try
To quit, I really try my best.
Yet I lit a fag,
Whenever lonely, or in stress.
I know I've hurt many people around,
Who want me to quit this fag.
I could never do what they wanted,
The thought make me feel guilty and bad.
Only if they knew, because of this,
How much I am in pain.
How much I feel distressed,
I try, but this dependence, it just doesn't wane.
I often preach to my friends,
Often tell them to change their way,
But I never listen to what they ask me to do,
And I expect they'd listen to what I say.
I want to tell you, friend,
Please give me some time.
I surely would quit
I want you by my side.
Just make me happy
Never let me be sad.
However hard be it for me
Do not let me feel sad.
Just bear with me for some time more,
I would come out of this hell.
Even if you can't be with me,
Just wish me luck, wish me well.